Holy shit bro, I didn't realize the sheer magnitude of what you've been through and how tough your life truly is/was. I thought you were just one of those random retards who go through mild depression and exaggerate it to extreme levels, but you've actually gone through something physically that's affected you. Hope you get better MaN; you're dedicated, you've trudged through the worst years of your life, you gotta start pursuing your passion now if you think you can actually make it as a programmer or broadcaster, as otherwise, all your effort getting through your 20's would be wasted.
And no, I actually had no idea who those two were, I'm actually such a fucking zoomer lmao, I thought Linkin Park was for boomers, didn't even realize they ripped off some other dudes.
And sorry, I'm not familiar with the British grading scale so I don't know what a 2:1 is. Also, if you attended uni in 2014, why the fuck were you learning Delphi lmao that shit has been dead for years.
" Kicked out cos some stupid sociopath bitch girl I was involved with didn't like that me and my THEN VIOLENT father (we've truced since my 26th birthday) had arguments behind closed doors, she belittled my shit saying hers raped her."
That fucking sucks, fuck that bitch ass HotPokket squadW; hopefully, the police eventually caught up and realized her fucked-up plans, but idk how criminal justice works in 3Head land.
"Even now I feel it's "too late" to get back into IT, and I'm more likely to get into eSports/streaming than programming, too much competition. Fuck, my old ass is more likely to get back into competing nationally with gymnastics or being a fitness coach than getting a coding job, for real!!!"
That's true, programming is becoming by far one of the most competitive job markets, as nowadays, some kids ~~(although a very very rare minority, most kids in NA and in the world couldn't care less about academics and even if they do, only care about school and aren't truly passionate about specific subjects)~~ who are truly dedicated in the logical subjects (math, physics, and programming), such as myself, are growing up doing the shit people do in PhD programs in high school, focusing on honing their problem-solving skills at such an early age through problem-solving heavy competitions and olympiads such as IMO, IOI, and IPhO and communities such as AoPS(I sent you a link to that earlier).
Thus, in my eyes, this is the only profession(other than sports) where age can truly make it too late. However, if you're truly passionate about programming and think you have the logic to at least get a semi-high paying job, then go for it. I don't know much about the other professions you're interested in, but if you still want to program, I suggest first learning the basics of Python (you already know C# and C++, so this should be relatively easy as you just need to adapt to the new syntax, programming languages are very similar logically, just slightly vary in structure). Then, after practicing with some random problems you find online, you should take https://www.coursera.org/learn/algorithms-part1 and https://www.coursera.org/learn/algorithms-part2? , free online courses that touch on the basics of complex algorithms provided by Princeton University. You can also check out the links I sent you before and read that MIT algorithms book if you find that you're actually talented (if you start struggling, you might not have the intellect to be a top programmer, but you can still go work at a random startup near you and earn >100k, just look for opportunities).
If you start heavily struggling though, and begin to have trouble thinking and problem-solving like the majority of people who want to program (but aren't smart enough to do so at a high-level), this field might not be for you, so dip and become a freelance commentator or some shit.
"LIAR!!!! You found my age from this post"
Nah, I never lie, I didn't see your age from that post, I saw it from some comment you made that went something like "30th birthday in a few days, what should I do for it", I just pressed my middle mouse button and dragged my cursor down to the bottom of the page to accelerate and maximize the scrolling velocity.
"Some people are meant for menial roles yes, I agree with that."
I don't know man, soon, automation is gonna completely take over nearly all blue-collar jobs, meaning that those who aren't at the top intellectually, those who do braindead work that can be completely replaced by robots and algorithms will be rendered useless (such as a packer, who's job is essentially calling an algorithm over and over again). You have a fair point, but in my eyes, people like that are just another retarded andy, another random, typical meaningless guy that will never provide nothing to society, while robbing us from our scarce natural resources and oxygen (at least in the coming years of automation).
You're right, I may be a toxic ass zoomer, but I consider myself a deeply knowledgeable/intellectual 5Head.
If you actually want to make a new beginning for yourself and become a dev, I hope that helps
Hmu on Discord @ CorporalSpoon31#0536 if you want more links, have questions, or if you've made any general progress in programming by following the links I sent.
You know, the internet is amazing, never thought I'd be speaking to some 30-year-old 3Head who watches xQc.
Cheers m8 oi 3Head